Date: 11/21/2008

You knew the way to make my make up run...

Hysterical laughing. The fact that you left me just like that 24 hours ago and i'm already talking to you like we're friends again. I've already forgiven you. How does that work. Im kicking myself mentally for the fact that i believed in this, in us. I hate myself for being the bigger person and trying to understand when you say your not ready for a relationship after someone else broke your heart. I wasn't the bitch who cheated on you and still i'm stuck with the empty feeling inside. Why didn't you just wait...? And now all you can say is sorry. Well i am too. Im sorry that you've proved to me that once again i dont wanna be part of this human race, i'm sorry that for the first time in my life i opened up and risked it all to get burned. I'm sorry that you were the very first person i felt this way about before. Sorry for believing it everytime when you said that i was the best, that i was you're angel and that you were non deserving of me, this even after you broke up with me. I'm sorry that im hurt deeply by you. And that i forgave you.i didnt expect it...it was out of the blue and it feels unreal.for the very first time in my non eventful mundane excistence i felt the urge to let all the walls down. Something i've never done before,except with you of course. You entered my heart, found your place, made yourself comfortable and then tore it apart from the inside. Guess i know now not to try that foolishness again. And i guess you could've been the one and most probably would have if it wasn't me. Guess the phrase 'misery loves me' rings true. Just wanted to thank you though. For the time we did have. It was the happiest of my life...


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